1-12-21,I lost my mother.Right now it hurts,but I know God will comfort me and my family.I never knew there was a pain this strong.I mean,the pain I feel right now is worst then being shot.In fact,I don’t think there is a pain greater than the one I feel […]
”Someone has to protect this family, from the man that protects this family” -Skyler (Breaking Bad) I got this quote from breaking bad. I think that it just resonates and touches close to home. As Tina (my kids mom) has managed to keep me separated from my children. […]
I’m doing time in prison in Lebanon Ohio it’s very hard when your family leaves you behind with out telling you why like they did me.I just don’t understand maybe it’s all the year’s I have to do who nose I pray to God one day to get […]
hello. world let me give you my apology to you its been a rough. month for me. iam writing about my lil brother. donald duck bailey. was killed. aug 17 2020 worst. day of my life. see its. hard to put together these words. now you got two […]
I don’t know what draws people to a site with the rantings and ravings of prisoners. Maybe you’re a law student trying to learn the ins and outs of the prison system for a paper. Maybe you’re an average Joe or Jane just curious about prison life. Maybe […]
Even though I my not have many people to talk too, I do have my parents that I talk too. They are here for me in many ways. But the one way I wish for them to be….they won’t. I guess I can elaborate on what way I […]
when i was around 24 and could no longer take care of my kids my adoptive parents stepped in. when i was in jail awaiting trial or tosee what was going to happen my mom passed away after my birthday. when my mom passed away i didn’t know […]
I understand and expected that you have become aware of the existence of my daughter’s online petition and my clemency petition to the Governor. I am NOT writing this to debate information, trade insults, explain myself, discuss the details of that night or ask for your support (obviously). […]
PERRY I WANT TO SEND YOU MY CONDOLENCE. TO YOU AND YOUR FAMILY, AT THIS TIME AND TO LET YOU KNOW THAT GOD GOT YOUR BACK AND HE WANT LET YOU DOWN. PERIOD AND TO KNOW THAT YOU GOT PEOPLE WHO CARES FOR YOU LOOK YOU KEEP UP […]
Early July 2020 Once again – another birthday missed due to being in Prison. My son just turned thirteen. He has now experienced three quarters of his life without me. When I dwell on that, the ache in my heart cannot be described. He does not know who […]
Loretta Scott Howard March 17, 1944 – June 13, 2020 On Saturday, June 13, 2020 at around 2:30 p.m. my precious mother left the pain and suffering of this world to enter the next eternal existence in Heaven where she will be with Jesus, Dad and all who […]
By:Difference (Aka:James Kelly) A boy with no mother… Is like a ship with no rudder… always frolicking in the sea… from place to place, with nowhere to be… searching for the lit port… no home, no love, no guidance… just a bastard spinning… not sinking, but not winning… […]
By:Difference (Aka James Kelly) Dear Nevaeh, Heaven my baby I love you, I want you, I miss you, I need you in my life. At this point we are sperated do to my negative choices. This is not on you. My being gone has nothing to do with […]
HAPPY B-DAY JAIDEN By:Difference (Aka:James Kelly) Happy B-Day to my 2nd oldest son Jaiden. I just wanted him to know that on this day when he turned 15, I was in prison. But I was thinking about him. Your mom wouldn’t even come get your Xmas presents, and […]
My heart has been torn; on my sleeve it’s been worn; for the first true love of my life; the one I should have made my wife; we both had insecurities and fears; which caused us to shed many tears; I hated all of the arguing we did; […]
1) Working a regular job 2) taking care of household responsibilities 3) Responsibilities in general 4) Being in control of what and where I eat 5) Sitting and laughing with female friends 6) Genuine friends 7) The feel of carpet beneath my bare feet 8) Sending and receiving […]
as I sit here in this cell wondering and thinking, taking a long hard look at myself, screaming at the man in the mirror, how in the hell did it end up this way? why go on any further? but I hear the familiar sound of a sweet […]
”One Day”, One day you will see, you will see what you mean to me. I know I’m gone now, and I wasn’t what you needed me to be. Once again you you have no daddy, but baby girl that’s on me. They tell me you don’t want […]
“I died inside, I tried, I cried, and to myself I lied. You might say that ”inside” meant inside prison where I’ve been for the majority of my life. But it wasn’t ”technically” in prison. I DIED INSIDE!! On the inside of my body, my soul, my heart, […]
The day you left it broke by heart but we are all falling apart. When you left I felt a lot of pain but I hope you know that I will always keep you in my healthy brain. I will always love you no matter what even though […]
poetry: Ever since grandma past my broken family seems like it won’t last, everybody blaming each other for the past, family members won’t help nor ask, mean mugs covered up by a smiling mask. I rather them not tell me they love me because it mess up our […]
To the one that brought me up and taught me right from wrong to the one that took me to church and made me sing all those songs, to the one that taught me about family and the true meaning of love to the one that pointed me […]
On this date March 24th 1999 a princess was born and I became the proudest father on this planet. Here it is 21 years later and I could not be any more prouder. You have grown into this beautiful, smart, and independent woman and I just can’t wait […]
So I have been thinking about this situation for a while now.. I have a person who wanted to be in my life and told me that I had to choose her or my daughter.. Mind you my daughter within the last year has been building a relationship […]
”MY NEWEST LITTLE GIRL” DEAR KAMIYAH PEACE MY STAR As of right now… you do not know who I am…b.u.t I promise to be in you life and stay in your life. You are a beautiful little girl with so much to give to the world..at such a […]
Question to the parents, would you do life for a crime you do not do, so your child would not do any prison or jail time? Should we care about our kids if they do not care about us? I would like to get other people’s oppion on […]
I wanted to let you know I am sorry,I have never apologized to you for being a bad son.I know I disappointed you because I disappointed myself,the things I promised you when I was a kid,I couldn’t give because of my actions.I need you to know that you […]
I would like to post this shout out to my middle daughter on behalf of her following in her dads footsteps and finishing basic training and joining the ranks of the military…….. Army that is . I am so PROUD of you Sweet Pea. Praise be to God […]
Hello world. I’ve mentioned before that I was raised completely by women; my mother, my great aunt, my cousin, a short stint in a foster home. My father wasn’t around for whatever reason(s). Throughout my childhood, I can remember maybe two instances where I saw him and spent […]
I know I disappointed you with my selfish decisions, Now I can’t wait to be with you again Now that Daddy has a clearer vision Things that have been done And things that have been said I just want you three to know That that old man is […]
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