First of all, it means the opportunity for a second chance at living a meaningful, productive life. When I was in active addiction I was not the person I should have been. I wasn’t the best father or husband I could have been. My priorities became very turned […]
About a year ago I received a letter from a west coast fishing guide. The letter really upset me. Felt like a knife in my back. I tore it up. But then … I gathered the torn pieces together and folded it back and put into the envelope […]
How did I rationalize what I was doing? I honestly felt that I was not doing anything to harm anyone. After all, everything I looked at had already happened sometime in the past. My merely finding it freely on-line had no bearing on what had happened to someone […]
This is my second number unfortunely, but i feel God has put me into a situation where i would be willing to accept Jesus Christ as my Lord and Savior. i was baptisted on the 25th of this month. I need God and a good support system out […]
I’m addicted to you every way i could be, but a friend every way i should be. If & can’t is in the wind like an incinerated marijuana tree. Between you & me, i’d be hard to ween me off of you. Because i’ve lost everything i thought […]
Surrounding the prison system there’s a prevalent debate on whether those who are addicted to drugs should be sent to prison for drug crimes. However, there’s a resounding disparity that lingers in this process, which involves color barriers as to whether race plays a factor in deciding who […]
I just wanted to tell some more about stuff I’ve seen, been through, done etc… I’ve been using meth off and on sense I was about 13-14 yrs old. It takes you to some place in your mind, where you just don’t think or care about ANYTHING! This […]
Many have exclaimed, “Addiction is NOT a disease — it’s a choice!” A disease, they’ll say, is something that you have no control over; it suddenly afflicts you when you least expect it and wreaks havoc on your life. People don’t do anything to bring about diseases in […]
This is basically the “memoir of a method addict”. I feel that you really can’t understand someone unless you have ever dealt with their struggle, knew their pain etc…We definitely shouldn’t judge people. I know better than anyone about this. Yea we can call it a “disease”, say […]
It’s no secret that most of us in prison (about 80% in fact) have been involved with and/or addicted to drugs and/or alcohol for many years, eventually leading us to where we are today. Many – if not virtually all – of us neglected our familial responsibilities, job […]
why is it after all this time do I still get that biting earge to get high.its not a daily thing, it comes from no where and hits me like a truck.I could be sitting here watching Ellen then the next thing I know I’m thinking and dope.then […]
I lived in a 3 bedroom 4 car garage home. My beautiful baby boy Robert and myself. Vern would go to Europe a lot on business and I was home alone a lot. Vern didn’t live with me but paid all my bills, bought me whatever I wanted, […]
Age 18 taken off the sreets, abusing drugs because of the things that happened to me. One pill, two pills, three pills out of this world only to come back no longer free. I take responsibility for what I’ve done, but does that mean it was meant? I […]
Crystal meth and I became very close. The difference between how you choose to ingest your choice of drug is like doing a new drug each time. Doing a line, or smoking a glass pipe there is no comparison to the needle. The rush alone is orgasmic. No […]
It was Thursday morning at 7:10 am just after count. No one is up just quite yet. And BAM! The SERT team comes in 30+ deep. Riot gear on, sheilds at the ready, pepper spray cans in hand and the drug dog teams right behind them. They were […]
I’VE FOUND A NEW WAY: Without being under the influence of drugs I’VE FOUND A NEW WAY!!! Without spending my last dollar to get high I’VE FOUND A NEW WAY!!! Without being addicted to any substance I’VE FOUND A NEW WAY!!! Without having to alter my reality I’VE […]
“”””””””””””””””””””‘”””””””””””””””””””‘ Who’s team are you on ? How do you think your better then us together ? they like mixing us were good to them, OK PEOPLE NO MORE QUESTION – And their looking to get hight and ? ? ? something that will never take place, no […]
Last night on the news I heard a Repubican (Rand Paul) talking about how drug laws are unfair to minorities, and how they need to be reformed across the board, and that marijuana laws need to be changed as well. What a nice change, and what a testament […]
No matter where you are in life you can find people that are willing to go to some extreme measures to escape their pain, to escape reality. Prison is no exception. Instincts tell us to flee from pain instead of looking for its source. Rather than search introspectively […]
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