When I came 2 prison I was placed N a situation where I basically had 2 turn my environment, unnatural as it may be, N2 a learning experience. A learning experience that has been going on now for more than 23 yrs.
I learned from everyone around me by watching and talking w/ them. It got 2 a point where it became so clearly evident that behind each man there is something so much greater than him. And that is God. God is the only reality.
I believe all of man’s experiences N life R also God’s experiences. We R literally God’s Children. But as a physical creature man is also N a constant growing process. One that is physical and spiritual. And no matter what we always encounter something new 2 learn from. But these new experiences also bring about new opportunities 2 grow. New situations that bring about spiritual development.
Everyone I encountered taught me something and gave me an experience. Whether good R bad it was an experience I learned from. And each experience always brought me 2 the realization that God engineers things 2 go the way they do for a reason. A Divine reason.
When I was a kid I made a mistake that led me 2 prison w/ a life sentence. But the mistake wasn’t w/ any crime I committed. The mistake I made was in placing faith N man. It was man’s twisted words ( my attorney’s ) that I trusted, which is what led me 2 entering N2 a bad plea deal.
I’m in prison b/c a racist white man proclaiming 2 B a police officer pulled his gun on me and tried 2 kill me w/ it. He shot at me twice B4 I was able 2 wrestle the gun away from him during a vicious struggle. I was only 18 and a 140 lbs. at the time. I was absolutely scared 2 death I was going 2 die. The guy I was struggling w/ was a full grown, big boned white man who the police dept. allowed 2 go around w/ a badge even though he wasn’t a policeman N any official capacity.
I know 4 a fact God intervened and saved my life that day. There’s no physical way possible I should’ve survived that encounter. That day was Judgement Day between us. And for some reason God chose me 2 live. But man is trying 2 keep me in prison until I die behind this situation.
N the end who’s laws matter most importantly? God’s laws R constant. Man’s laws R constantly changing. If God chose 2 spare me 2 go on 2 live my life then who is man that he should take my life away b/c of an act of self-defense?