I had to take my time, and started breathing, stopped playing, and started thinking, stopped wishing, and started being a MAN.
Sacrificed wanting to be in love, to loving myself which was my best thinking words my mother kept speaking.
Too many years of failing at love without the proper emotions, exploring other insane conversations was my worst conditions, thinking things were amazing with the women I was chancing truthfully them Bridgeport women were amazing.
Still I was enhanced with impatience, covered up the past pain of accepting too many people with two faces with no safe passage, got tired of being called a savage or looked at like a maggot, becoming emotionally toxic or causing havoc.
Other peoples problems, I was back packing, consequences was the backstabbing that happened to me…
Lesson One…
“I was shunned away from my greatest influence, around the same-time I met my greatest influence (Michelle Newkirk & Tiffany Baker). They walked away, didn’t know they were my greatest influence.”
Made me feel like SUPERMAN, greater than any human, greater than any human.
But I…started displaying signs of immaturity with emotions that I couldn’t manage, torrential down pour, our friendhsip was being damaged and I was immediately abandoned from the inconsistent thought that I managed.
Sincerely…Nathanel Lamont Carter Jr. a373-396 @Jpay.com
Nathanel Carter Jr.
DOC #a373-396
