Why do we feel these ways. Why does our minds trap us from real life? Why are we at faults? Why is it we make a path and sometimes the path is just too hard? All I ever want is to feel like a human being..Sometimes plans change and you feel lower then low .I hope my plans never change.. I want to be a dedicated person.. I hope I am. I get a lot of slack because I have been here for so many years..I let my heart out so much an expect it in return but how am I suppose to foist that opinion on anyone.. I can’t.. I realised I can only show me..I can’t prove me to anyone until I come home..I am lost.. I lose everyday and don’t know why..I keep my mind sharp with reading materials and my body in shape with extensive cross fit routines.. I want to be someone. I want to be wanted and needed always. I don’t want to be a let Down.. I am a man with a pure heart and will always be honest. I have been waiting and waiting for a response but the system has mocked me..Why do I have to always be a good man? I choose to do better everyday. I am also a human with feelings and sometimes my feelings get hurt.. I never mean to break..I know I have to be shining and perfect if I want to make it .
Hope this touches your hearts..
You deserve real..
@ jpay/Idaho
Jason MacKerchar
DOC #77009
Very touching Jason. Keep writing.