I try to avoid stressing but it get hard when you start losing faith in those you love the most. Just because the faith slipping away I do my best not to let it affect the love. Its disappointing to even admit that a situation such as prison can determine the dynamics of certain relationships, and its worst that some relationships won’t be able to survive prison. It’s a learning lesson to find out what each relationship was actually built on, and before being locked up I didn’t even know what I wanted from any relationship. So I cant really act surprised when the guys I was with because of a common money interest are no longer around, nor can I be surprised when the females that I was with just for a good time choose that over hard times. I’m thankful for those that was patient enough with me to learn how to actually love me, and I want to apologize to the same people for me just now trying to give them the time they gave me since Im not present. I understand life don’t stop for anyone else while I’m in here so I ask everyone to understand that I can’t accept lest or be treated different because of my situation. I just want the same love I would get if I was there.
Deshanon Haywood #672590
Lebanon, Oh 45036
Deshanon Haywood #672590 at jpay.com