THE MOST CONFUSING YET DIFFICULT THING LEFT IN MY REHABILITATION IS BY FAR APPLYING LOVE !!! WHEN TO WALK AWAY.
I’LL START BY SAYING THE FIRST WOMAN TO IMPRINT ON. ME HAS RIDDLED MY BLOOD WITH PASSION BEYOUND MY COMPREHENSIVE UNDERSTANDING. HER NAME LORI I WAS 14 -15 SHE WAS 20-21 I’LL NEVER FORGET THE IMPRINT OF THAT DAY , THE DAY I SAT UPSTAIRS IN MY FATHERS HOUSE STARING OUT THE WINDOW AS SHE GOT OUT OF THE CAR. THE SEXIEST ITALIAN INDIAN WOMAN LONG BLACK HAIR, THE BREASE CARRIED HER SCENT UP TO ME IT WAS LIKE THE ENTIRE WORLD’S FIELDS OF FLOWER HITTING ME.. I KNEW INSTANTLY I HAD TO HAVE HER… SHE WAS INVOLVED THOUGH SO FOR HER I WAS A TOY BUT ME SHE WAS MY FIRST I WOULD DONE ANYTHING I COULD OKF EASLY GOT CAUGHT UP IN DIRT UNDER HER LUSTFUL WEB.. AFTER A SHORT TIME WE NEVER CROSSED PATHS UNTILL THIS NUMBER AND SHE MUST KNOW HOW THIS IMPRINT AFFECTS ME BECOUSE I KNOW IN MY HEART SHE IS STILL WANTING TO MASH THE GAS, AND IT SCARES ME TO THINK HOW UNHEALTHY THIS SITUATION COULD BECOME VERY QUICK, I’VE NEVER MARRIED ANOTHER WOMAN BECOUSE OF THE IMPRINT SHE LAYED , ITS LIKE THE FIRST WOMAN I SLEPT WITH , SET SUCH A HIGH BAR, THAT FINDIG ANOTHER TO SEXUALLY CHALLENGE THAT BAR HAS BEEN ALL MOST IMPOSSIBLE. IN THE 25+ YEARS I FOUND ONE OTHER WOMAN THAT WAS ABLE TO SWIM AT HER LEVEL HER NAME IS BRITTNEE, DON’T GET IT WRONG I SAID AT HER LEVEL MEANING SHE WAS FIRST AND LAYED THE IMPRINT TRACKS …
THE FIRST DAY I MET BRITT I WAS IN A TRAP HOUSE THEIR WERE LOTS OF PEOPLE , IN THE ROOM AFTER SITTING THERE GETTING HIGH SEEING MULTIPLE MEN COME AND GO FROM THE ROOM AJAR FROM ME SHE CAME OUT , SAT RIGHT ACROSS FROM ME AS I GAZED INTO HER BEAUTIFUL EYES A SINGLE HEAVY TEAR RAN DOWN MY CHEEK IT WAS THE FIRST TIME I HAD EVER MET SOMEONE WHO CREATED A BETTER DECOR TO DESCISE THE DOOR TO THEIR HEART , IT WAS LIKE I WALKED RIGHT UP TO HER DOOR AND LOOKED CLEAN THROUGH THE PEEP HOLE, COULD SEE THIS BEAUTIFUL WOMAN , A WOMAN THAT NOT EVEN SHE KNEW YET… SHE CAME OVER SAT DOWN NEXT ME ASKED ME WHY WAS I SHEADING TEARS “” I FEEL YOUR PAIN THROUGH THE HERT YOU’VE CARRIED AND MANEGED TO ADAPT TO , I COULD SEE AND FEEL SCARS THAT RUN UP AND DOWN HER INSIDE FROM YEARS OF ABUSE AS A CHILD , FATHERLESS , THIS WOMAN 6`2″ LONG HAIR WHEN SHE IS IN HUSTLE MODE SHE ONLY SEE’S GREEN LIGHTS SAVAGE SURVIVING ANNIMAL . IT’S WEIRD BECOUSE SHE IS THE ONLY WOMAN I”VE BEEN WITH YOUNGER BY BETTER THEN 5 YEARS. I WOULD NEVER OF THOUGHT AT 28 SHE IS CURRENTLY LOCKED UP RIGHTS ME OF THE WOMAN I. MET ALL THEM YEARS AGO. THE WOMAN. I NEW WAS IN THERE.. SHE TALKS ALL THIS SETTLING DOWN , GOT ME BAFFLED EVEN CONSIDERING ANOTHER BABY “W.T.F” I ALWAYS TOLD MYSELF ONCE I WAS MARRIED .. BUT IS THIS LIP BOXING, I KNOW WHEN I WAS 28 I RELAPS OVER AND OVER.. I’M LOSING SLEEP BOTH THESE WOMAN GET OUT SAME TIME .. AND I HAVE SO MUCH LOVE FOR. OTH OF THEM. BUT WITH ALL I’M LEARNIG IN GROUPS AM SUPOSE TO COSIDER WALKING AWAY COMPLETELY FROM THIS SITUATION. I DON’T UNDERSTAND IF I’M FEELING LOVE ON THE SAME LEVEL.. I WANNA BE THE LEPRECHAUN AT THE END OF BOTH THEIR RAINBOWS BUT KNOW BEING GREEDY ABOUT THE POT OF GOLD WILL BREAK A LEPRECHAUN. IN MOST CASE’S IT MIGHT BE BEST TO VANISH AND START FRESH. IF ANY ONE OUT THERE HAS ANY IMPORTANT ADVICE RELATING TO MY SITUATION FEEL FREE TO TO CONTACT ME JPAY.COM OR SNAIL. MAIL W.C.I. P.O. BOX 120 LEBANON , OHIO 45036
KODY OSCO
DOC #640807
