When we lose someone that we truly care about we lose part of ourselves that mean the most to us. I lost my wife back in May and I feel the deep emotional impact of that loss. After being able to call her three times a day when I needed to talk to someone who understood me, now I don’t have her to call; I cry inside for that loss. The tears come when I think about how I meant to her and she to me. The connection was there. I feel like I did not know her that well but at the same time I feel like I knew everything about her. Wish that I had more time with her to get to really appreciate her more than I did. You do not know how much a person means to you until they are gone. Love, they say, conquers all and I believe this. I was an angry man without love nor compassion in my life. Bitterness was not the word I would use for how I felt until I met Brenda. She taught me how to talk dirty to her and she taught me how to be the loving man that she needed me to be. Love conquers all!!! When I started to blog, I figured that I would just write about my life and the bullshit that occurs in it. Then it got real meaning. It gave me an honest chance to share my losses and my gains in this place. I figured that I would meet lots of people out there by my honesty. Hopefully I do. But I want to love again like I loved Brenda. I want to smile like there is no tomorrow and be able to laugh again. Death of a loved one sucks immensely. But without this kind of loss, we cannot move on and grow into that blossoming flower that we’re supposed to be. We cannot share our strengths without reserve. So, when I say to you that I need to love again it is from the dep soul of mine that desires to be held by someone who understands my needs and wants. I know that God gives us what we need, not what we want, and I accept this. But I want a choice in the matter. I want love not lust. I want to grow old with someone who can be my best friend and lover at the same time. Love conquers all.
Contact Info:
Christopher Mask
11560 County Rd. FF-75
Las Animas, CO 81054
