There’s no doubt that at some point in life one may have this overwhelming feeling of failure. Maybe its anxiety about the unforseen future, or regret about the missed opportunities of the past. Nevertheless these feelings are ever so present in real time and have life long after effects. It’s as if there’s an extra shadow that follows you around reminding you of your biggest to smallest screw-ups. I don’t know whether to embrace this second shadow or try to hide or run from it. I pray and continuously ask for forgiveness and guidance because the times we live in are extremely uncertain and another failure at this point would ruin not just myself but also my children. Its disturbing to see what society is coming to from the inside looking out. It just seems as though there’s more hate in the world than love. Its more to life than what the naked eye see’s. The experiences, the moments we never forget, the ups and downs, the achievements and failures are what make us who we are. I guess what I’m trying to say is that you have to ”keep on pushing” as my granddad use to always say. Despite these feelings I have of being useless in here and being a failure I have to ”keep on pushing” because I know this is what my granddad would have told me to do. I don’t want to turn cold and heartless because I feel so alone. Its not easy and I know it’s more mental than emotional. I just wish I had someone to talk to though..

Mr. Da’Von Joshua Motley Sr.
(Abdul-Haleem Raqeeb)
Allen Correctional Institution
2338 N. West St.
Lima, OH 45802
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