My Views on Love (I’m Just Saying), by Ja’Relle Smith

A man who LOVES a woman that refuses to communicate with him,is one that if you would isolate his every individual thought and then place them in successive order you may assume this man to be one obsessed or crazy as the flux of this mans thoughts ever rise in thoughts of her.Almost as if he was programmed to religiously find his thoughts in a bondage of sorts to an ambiguous future with her,somehow he manages to see her in every aspect of his what some may say “pathetic” life,and would govern his every response to life’s politics as if every answer was contingent upon the reciprocity of his love for her,that if he was to be honest he is not even sure exist because of her clear lack of communication and commitment,but one can still hope,right?Nevertheless deeming the thought worthy of meditation would ponder upon every possible scenario in this psychological “soap opera” of his than to in a way dishonor her by casting such foolishness to the reservoir of his self conscious as he would occasionally do an inordinate desire.I mean this is all this man has in regards to her,and values her to a degree that far exceeds the level of embrassment he feels when people ask him about her and he responds the same way time and time again “Ughh I don’t know,she has a lot going on,I havent heard from her in a while she’ll probably contact me soon though”.He acts like he doesn’t see their side eyed looks of unbelief.He once laid down at night thinking maybe in a medieval times a love like his would be likened to real romance and passion and his love could most likely be a story told about true love where words such as “thee” and “thou” are used,which would indicate to those of the twenty first century that this story is from a time that didnt exist with them existing in it.Therefore allowing them to absent mindedly with ignorance cast away such “rubbish” as the woman he loves has absent mindedly thrown away his love.As if to say that True Love is a topic that can be valued and only marketed by time itself.No!Love is timeless we are the ones that have suffered from the prosperous prostitution of our own time and find it not profitable to learn of the most powerful force in the universe,Love!It has in the twenty first century become awkward if you will to express ones love in such an outrageous way,television has programmed the woman to look for the very love you are reading about now but societies economic injustice and the lack we as a people suffer in many major arenas in our communities have painted the image of a man as one that is contrary to the status quo of Walt Disney television that now the average man stands little to no chance at all becuase of the psychological imagery this society suggest, so much so that one that is above average and just so happens to meet the status quos of feminist entertainment not to say that he has done so purposely but this man is one that was raised right and through tribulations of his life has burned out the dross and infirmities in himself shining as pure gold has developed a desire to love and give in the direct measure this woman desires but again our system has developed into such a one as it is today that this man is side eyed,accused of having a motive of everything except TRULY loving this woman,or the fearful woman’s best friends favorite suggestion “Girl he might be gay”.A man that is in tune with his consciousness and is well articulated in the matters of his heart is such a far cry from the norm that he might as well have entered this womans world in a UFO.Double minded to say the least is this woman who faces the challenge of giving in to her nature or stick with the “program” that has been downloaded into her sub conscious mind.It is here in this place that this man wages his warfare.This is where I find myself and for those in like places:FIGHT ON FIGHT ON!

Ja’Relle Smith
DOC #634-158