Jason Mackerchar

“Being alone” By Jason Mackerchar

I have been in and out of relationships while I have been in here.. I have always got my heart broke in every one of them.. Whether the trial gets too hard or lies happen or I get cheated on because of waiting is just too much. I have been through all of the emotions on the list.. I was a bad person when I was out there.. I lost my mom when I was still fairly young.. I was 22 yes old..We were bestfriends.. She had me no matter what.. As for a woman who can be strong enough to stand by her man no matter what has came very close.. Not sure why no one sees loyalty and respect above all else..Standing by for anything..No questions asked.. Its not so easy being alone in here.. There is a lot of things we can get.. We can have family and friends send us books and magazines or comissarry to make sure that if the state food is gross one day we can have a choice not to eat it.. Can’t complain on that too much though because at least we do get a choice to starve or eat.. Lol.. Companionship with writing letters or emails and feeling like you have someone you can count on is a great feeling.. Even that someone out there feels the same way.. That’s how it is.. It is really nice that Suzie has made it possible for our thoughts to get out..Very nice of her and her husband.
I appreciate it.
I am laying here writing my thoughts.. I have a few friends in here that I hang out with but its not the same as having someone to call and write to.. Having to break the rules every once in a while to make sure I won’t go hungry. Its not a good feeling.
I am not sure where my life will lead but I hope I have people that will.support my ideas.. I want to be a personal trainer and a tattoo artist..I am in great shape and my tattoo game is on point.
I hope this writing opens up your heart and mind to stay strong for your loved one behind bars..
write soon..
@ jpay.com Idaho

Jason Mackerchar
DOC #77009

5 replies »

  1. I’m sorry you feel that way by the way.You’re not alone being alone.I’ve been there all my life although I have a family, the last people whom I expect most that would make me feel lonely but they’re good at doing so…they won’t even ask how am I doing,they won’t even bother to communicate.It hurts.I just learned to be alone and not expect from anyone anymore.


  2. Thank you so much for putting this out there. I’m srry that u have been hurt Bt just hold strong to the promise that God will bring that someone into your life that will stand with you through anything.


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