Johnny Simmons

“The Strong Black Woman” By; Johnny Simmons

While struggling with the reality of being human instead of a myth, the strong black woman passed away. Medical sources say that she died of natual causes, but those who knew her know she died from being silent when she should have been screaming. Smiling when she should have been raging, from being sick and not wanting anyone to know because her pain might inconvenience them. She died from an overdose of other people clining to her when she didn’t even have energy for herslf. She died from loving men who didn’t love themselves and could only offer her a crippled reflection. She died from raising children alone. She died from the lies her grandmother told her mother and her mother told her, about life, men, and racism. She died from being sexully abused as a child and having to take the truth everywhere she went everyday of her life, exchanging the humiliation for guilt and back again. She died from asphyxiation, from secrets she kept trying to burn away instead of allowing herself the kind of nervous breakdown she was entitled to, but only white girls could afford. She died from being responsible, because she was the last rung on the ladder and there was no one under her she could dump on. The strong black woman is dead. She died from being dragged down and sat upon by un-evolved women posing as sisters and friends. She died from tolerating Mr. Pitiful, just to have a man around the house.She died from sacrificing herself for everybody and everything when what she really wanted to do was be a singer, a dancer, or some magnificent other.She died from lies of omission because she didn’t want to put the black man down. She died from myth that would not allow her to show weakness without being chastised by the lazy and hazy. She died from hiding her real feelings until they became hard and bitter enough to invade her womb and breast like angry tumors. She died from never being enough of what men wanted,or being too much for the men she wanted. She died from being too black, and died again for not being black enough.She died from being misinformed about her mind,her body,and the extent of her royal capabilities. She died from knees pressed too close together,because respect was never part of the foreplay that was being shoved at her.And sometimes when she refused to die,when she refused to give in,she was killed by lethal images of blonde hair,blue eyes,and flat butt. Being rejected by the O.J’S, the Quincy’s, the Cuba’s, and the Kobe’s. Sometimes, she was stomped to death by racism,and sezism,executed by hi-tech ignorance while she carried the family in her belly,the community on her head, and the race on her back! The Strong Black Woman Is Dead! Or Is She? Johnny Simmons#309632 R.L.C.C. Hope B-1 1630 Prison Rd. Cottonport, La. 71327

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