I want to use this platform as a way to help parents, care-takers, educators, psychologists, and any person who believes that the physical, mental, and emotional health of a child is not only important but is important enough to dedicate their time to, in not only learning what they can to help ensure the safest childhood for them, but to know how to spot the signs and red flags of the predators who are in nearly every aspect and department of your child’s life.
My personal horror story started at six years old when my alcoholic, paranoid, schizophrenic father began to make me grow my hair out, dress like and live like his daughter and personal sex slave. Beyond the sexual abuse, was the physical, mental and emotional abuse that destroyed my innocence and childhood and ensured that I would never have a chance at any kind of normal future.
The four boys and one woman who were at the mercy of the monster, lived in terror, as we all cowered in his presence, hoping to not be the one chosen that day or that hour, to purge his demons on. Countless times I would see him coming towards me with the look of the devil in his eyes. I would feel the warmth of my own urine running down my legs like a terrified dog, just before I felt the first punch or kick hit my small body, as the man beat the child for having pissed him off for some reason, or just because I was the closest object available to him so he could vent his fury.
I can’t remember how many times I would wake up in a puddle of my own urine or blood wondering if I was more relieved that my father had not gone too far and beat me to death or if I was disappointed that he left me alive, because I knew there would be more violent attacks and more dehumanizing and vile sex acts to perform.
Finally, at 13 years old, I was sent to the first of many mental institutions, juvenile detention centers, and psych wards, where sadly, the abuse continued at the hands of many predators who seek out jobs at those type of places to have access to the never-ending flow of already broken children… I am currently serving three consecutive 8 years to life sentences for doing exactly what I hated my father for, to countless innocent victims, whose only mistake was to trust the monster hiding behind a very convincing make of normalcy.
I am currently writing a book in which I will describe not only my personal and nauseating abuse but all the tactics and deceptive ways I honed over the decades to groom not only the child, but the adults who fell prey to the wolf in sheep’s clothing and slipped into the trust they placed in me, when they allowed me to access their little lambs.
Contact Info: Lee Samuelson#144817, F.C.F., PO Box 999, Canon City, CO 81215. Or at securustech.net
