”Someone has to protect this family, from the man that protects this family” -Skyler (Breaking Bad) I got this quote from breaking bad. I think that it just resonates and touches close to home. As Tina (my kids mom) has managed to keep me separated from my children. […]
I want to start by saying ”God bless the dead” R.I.P. George Floyd. My heart and prayers go out to your family. I know that this mans life was taken in a senseless and brutal way. However this man did not die in vain. It was for more […]
By:Difference (Aka:James Kelly) A boy with no mother… Is like a ship with no rudder… always frolicking in the sea… from place to place, with nowhere to be… searching for the lit port… no home, no love, no guidance… just a bastard spinning… not sinking, but not winning… […]
By:Difference (Aka James Kelly) Dear Nevaeh, Heaven my baby I love you, I want you, I miss you, I need you in my life. At this point we are sperated do to my negative choices. This is not on you. My being gone has nothing to do with […]
HAPPY B-DAY JAIDEN By:Difference (Aka:James Kelly) Happy B-Day to my 2nd oldest son Jaiden. I just wanted him to know that on this day when he turned 15, I was in prison. But I was thinking about him. Your mom wouldn’t even come get your Xmas presents, and […]
I’ve seen… I’ve seen people smile in my view, but in the blind they’ll frown on you. I’ve seen shady people in disguise of friends, but in the streets that’s how it ends. Envy, jealousy, and sickening hate, I’ve seen phony people who perpetrate, They’ll shake your hand, […]
”One Day”, One day you will see, you will see what you mean to me. I know I’m gone now, and I wasn’t what you needed me to be. Once again you you have no daddy, but baby girl that’s on me. They tell me you don’t want […]
“I died inside, I tried, I cried, and to myself I lied. You might say that ”inside” meant inside prison where I’ve been for the majority of my life. But it wasn’t ”technically” in prison. I DIED INSIDE!! On the inside of my body, my soul, my heart, […]
“What do you do when all your values are under attack” I used to THINK I knew what love is, and what love meant. But when you start to question yourself, then its a mystery. What do you do when your maternal mother throws you away for the […]
I want to thank everyone for their thoughts and prayers. I was recently blessed with a parole date. My release date is 6-5-19. Almost my son Jaidens B-day. He will be 14 years old by then. Probably more of a man than I am already. Thank the Lord. […]
I am asking everyone who reads this to pray for my upcoming parole hearing on 1-9-19. Please just pray that I be granted parole and that the lords will, not my own be done. I believe in the power of prayer. I just haven’t prayed for myself a […]
I LOVE HATERS!! See I feel like I have been hated on most of my life, in one way or another. Which is ironic really. As I am 40 years old, been to prison 7 times, have bad credit, don’t own a single car or piece of property. […]
“Our culture has accepted two huge lies. The first is that if you disagree with someone’s lifestyle, you must fear or hate them. The second is that to love someone means you agree with everything they believe or do. Both are nonsense. You don’t have to compromise convictions […]
The time that I wasted is my biggest regret, spent in these places I will never forget. Just sitting and thinking about the things that I’ve done. The the crying, the laughing, the hurt and the fun. Now its just me and my hard driven guilt Behind a […]
“Maturity begins to grow when you can sense your concern for others outweighing your concern for yourself” “To be told we are loved is not enough. We must feel loved” “Its never what you say, but how you make it sound sincere” “The best index to a persons […]
Today I am 40 years old. What does this mean? Well just another day in prison for me. I’m serving my 7-th prison. I’ve been in this time about 4-1\2 years, sense 5-9-14. So I guess its just time to grow up. I’m too old to still be […]
I have a quote that says; “you have one job in this life, it’s to protect the people you love” I have to just say that as I take the quote to mind, heart and soul. I have heavy guilt and regret. I have left my children with […]
I write this in hopes of just getting something out of my heart. My guilt is heavy do to my children growing up without a father, while I am in prison. I guess a man and a father have one job in life. That’s to protect his family. […]
(Note from Suzie: This has been posted using cell phone screenshots because I am currently out camping and away from my laptop. Thank you for understanding.)
They say “only the strong survive”. Well I’ve “survived”, almost 40 years. But I haven’t Lived-Life. I have either been lost in my addiction or wasting away in a prison cell. Not only have I had little time out in the community, the time I have had has […]
I just wanted to tell some more about stuff I’ve seen, been through, done etc… I’ve been using meth off and on sense I was about 13-14 yrs old. It takes you to some place in your mind, where you just don’t think or care about ANYTHING! This […]
1 Corinthians 13:4 Love suffers long and is kind love does not envy love does not parade it’s self, is not puffed up does not behave rudely, does not seek it’s own, is not provoked, thinks no evil does not rejoice in iniquity, but rejoices in the truth […]
I have a quote, (not mine) that says, “You can tell the integrity of a man, by the way he treats someone who can do absolutely NOTHING for him”. “You can tell a lot about somebody’s character, by the way they treat their waiter” “Always be a little […]
This is basically the “memoir of a method addict”. I feel that you really can’t understand someone unless you have ever dealt with their struggle, knew their pain etc…We definitely shouldn’t judge people. I know better than anyone about this. Yea we can call it a “disease”, say […]
“The truth about your heart. Your heart will fix its self. Its your mind that you need to worry about. Your mind where you locked the memories, your mind where you have kept pieces of the ones that hurt you, that still cut through you like shards of […]
Requesting pen pals, by e-mail or “snail mail”. I am just looking to be able to share some consistent communication with people in society. I can’t lie it does get a little lonely and monotonous here in prison. So if you are someone interested in communicating with me? […]
To: Mom -A Mothers love- A Mothers Love pure and sweet, she’ll be there to console you, when you go through defeat. She’s a caregiver, a teacher, a mentor, a friend. She’ll be there for you all the way to the end. She gave you life with your […]
A Perfect Man -wakes up at 5: am every day -exercizes every day -makes his own bed -cleans his room -works sincerely -does not touch alcohol -does not smoke -helps in the kitchen -does not indulge in the night life -is always punctual -prays daily -reads -hits the […]
“It doesn’t matter who hurt you or broke you down, what matters is who made you smile again” “A strong relationship requires choosing to love each other, even in those moments when you struggle to like each other” “The scary part about dating is, either you are going […]
*Just so everyone knows, (if I don’t know the person who wrote the quotes I don’t put a name) (1) “Its not fair that you were just so careless with my heart. Its not fair that you made me fall in love with one person, but turned out […]
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