GROWING UP IN MY HOUSE HOLD WAS DISFUNCTIONAL ALL I CAN REMEMBER HAPPENING WAS ALL THE BAD THINGS LIKE WHEN I WAS A KID IT WAS ME AND MY LITTLE SISTER WHO STAYED WITH OUR MOM AND DAD WE GREW UP IN THE GHETTO WHERE ALL YOU HEARD […]
My youngest child Breanna, was born 12 years ago today. she was only a few months old when I came to prison and since then I’ve have not been a part of her life, I wish more then anything that I could just tell her Happy birthday, and […]
Demoralizing, destroying family bonds,and over punishing a person only desensitizes an individual. See in the New Jersey State Prison Inmate Handbook 2016,17,18 Edition, it clearly states: Maintaining Family ties: “Authorized visits are considered to be a privilege (unless the correctional facility has regulations that specifically state otherwise.) Like […]
What really defines a man is it his ability to reason and to communicate with others is it his strength and tolerance is it his ability to love and be understanding and supportive of other people and their needs is it the job he works or how much […]
Note to self: We’ve been courageous & strong this long, so we won’t apologize for anything. Damn really? You pawn me off on my father’s mother unti breath exhausted. You ought to be ashamed of yourself from the things that life tossed in. I was at a loss […]
When was the last time someone expressed true heartfelt gratitude for you being in their life? My eldest daughter reminded me father & man i’ve grown to be has done something right for a change. The blame should be placed on where it starts, yourself. My parents parted […]
After all this time you’d figure this would be a learning experience for some, but my interactions with weak individuals would beg to differ. The age of love is lost, no one even acknowledges this feeling anymore. Anything to demean, weaken, tear down, or embarass is at the […]
I am a little shocked at the fact that a loving person like myself doesn’t have a “Best Friend” on the other side of the fence. It’s understandable that I am in the belly of the beast for a crime that was committed 27 years ago. But does […]
”THE BEST PARTS OF ME” I’m sorry my daughters, I’m sorry that I’m absent I’m sorry my daughters, I’m just hoping that your patient I love you my baby, I know that it seems that I’m out of sight I promise in a room full of darkness, I’ll […]
If I ever sought to find real, genuine, and unconditional love, I know that I found it in my daughters Antriell & Lawriell, and their gorgeous mother Lillian Marie. But it is not within the huggs and kisses that I found their greatest love, but within their hearts. […]
To me Family is precious and more valuable then any riches I know of on this earth, Depending on how you were brought up and where you come from has a lot to do with the way you perceive family. (FAMILY) is something I thought I lacked due […]
By One God Daddy ain’t being the man that he’s supposed to be. he’s hopelessly weak, and Less than she, he’ll never be the Father First, incapable and stuck With the daddy curse, He’s worst and never had a chance from birth, because the roles were reversed. But […]
Dear Twin Brother, I love you. I know you know that, but I feel it’s important to explicitly reaffirm it from time to time. Where do I begin? I don’t quite know, but there is so much in me that I want to express to you, so you’ll […]
I was watching Ellen yesterday (9/14/18) for only a moment yet, I was struck by a poignant acronym. I don’t know if “struck” is the correct expression because, in a strange way, I feel that it was placed in my path. I’ll explain. I have never lost anything […]
I write this in hopes of just getting something out of my heart. My guilt is heavy do to my children growing up without a father, while I am in prison. I guess a man and a father have one job in life. That’s to protect his family. […]
I can honestly say I am a proud father. Proud to have 4 children who I adore, love & respect. Growing up without a father figure in my life, I accepted at a young age that this was natural. So with this lie being my reality, I found […]
In this second installment of incarcerated relationships, I had to speak on family because the family dynamic is also important. The whole purpose of prison is punishment by separation from society. Though the crime warrants this punishment most times, it’s detrimental to the person being punished. The idea […]
I sit here in this cell wondering if I could choose my own baby mother,but I know u can’t. So I ask God what is the connection between me and my baby mom? Cause I just don’t understand if a man Is trying to be in his kids […]
Dear La’Niyah, La’Nycee, and Da’Von Jr., SMILE!!!! I LOVE AND MISS YALL SOOOO MUCH!!!!! 😉 ok… so I don’t know where to really start so I’ll start with I’m sorry. Over the past few years I haven’t been in your lives because of my actions. I’ve tried my […]
In admiration of the beautiful specimen god has ever created, women..if you combed the ends of the earth, you would never find a love greater than that of a mother…The duty and responsibility of a mother is a never endin job.Unlike any other job in the world, a […]
This space is in me that only you know. This place that I am isn’t it. With each little truth that we share, with each sorrow, this place becomes far less to bare. Thank you for being the one that would get me, when every one else did […]
I once had a dream about a boy who dreamed about a girl who was dreaming about a boy who dreamed about a girl. In my dream the boy found green where red was yellow, the color of roses bled nights passing and the scent where taste becomes […]
Mother’s Day … I got to talk to my mom , :0/ :0) :0( …. yes all in one I feel like I’m such a dissipointment . I have hurt that women time and time again an she has forgiven me and loved me unconditionally my whole life […]
My youngest daughter wrote this for me. I thought I would share. She’s a beautiful 14 year old and shes smart and strong. We talk almost everyday. Im so proud of her! I love you princess Em!!!! I am a daughter of an amazing dad. I wonder what […]
I have blessings and pain to tell you about. I thank God for this Blog because it is a wonderful outlet for me and most likely many others. My daughter-in-law, Christy that had the problems waking up after she had my grandson on April 26th, is alive and […]
Happy birthday to my little princess who turned a whole 9 years old today. She is so sweet, smart, kind, helpful, thoughtful, and beautiful. (She gets that from her pops obviously lol) It hurts and bothers me that I’m in prison and my little angel is out there […]
I haven’t been on in awhile for good reason. I have 2 new members in my family. First came my Grandson, Johnathan and then my Great-Granddaughter Zoey! Johnathan was born on 4-26-18 and he wasn’t due til June 1st, so he is a little fellow. My daughter-in-law had […]
The producer of our life, our conforter when we are sick in health No amount of dollars can equal the price, of a mothers love above all else The role of a provider, that comes instinctively from inside her Showing appreciation, worth more than anything you could ever […]
I had a very interesting talk with with my daughters recently, I was basically telling them that even thought I wish they wouldn’t even think about a boyfriend; till they are 25 or better. The reality of the situation is, its gonna happen sooner or later I jus […]
Did you ever know that you’re my hero? That’s a question that i’ll never hear myself ask the man who will always be my anti-hero. The most flawed man i have ever looked up to, my dad was the human being I wanted to be loved by so […]
Inmate Blogger 