>>Because all of my more internal colors are intended to be shown in anything else I submit, I want to keep this more informative. I was born may22, 1985 in turlock california.. I have been locked up since the end of ’06 and have a parole eligibility date […]
I’ve actually been really busy today.. one thing to the next.. escapism.. I have this cough that is a fckn devil I swear! really only messes with me when I want to rest.. but yah, I am going to talk a little about what I’ve been up to, […]
you know I’ve actually been going through a few things the last couple of days.. you’ve noticed I’m sure. but sometimes I feel like its not fair to you because the way I deal with things is a little different I guess.. I don’t really make my things […]
.. I just wanted to be with you for a little bit, while I am just sitting here watching american idol.. I like this show a lot.. I know you’re to cool to get teared up, but I tear up more times than I can count.. believe me, […]
.. I know you aren’t required to know this but today was the little bros bday, so moms is somewhat unwell.. which moves me of course. not trying to be a sop.. I never like to see friends down, although its okay to feel sorrow.. I guess you […]
the lyrics to a song that just manifested.. its written by a ghost, reading the mind of a friend, and then having a conversation with them in their sleep.. the thoughts are mixed and intermingled.. youknow, ghost language. I’ll try to write it how its sort of sung. […]
yah, idk exactly how to describe the way that I deal with inner clouds.. I would have to say that one thing to consider is that almost my whole life I have dealt with everything on my own.. like I’ve mentioned, in my teen years I was introverted […]
I saved it because I wanted to tell you about the ritual that I do.. you know there’s not really a right thing to say really, we both know that being togethernis the real need.. sometimes though, when I write weird philosophical ideas of life, I just like […]
telling ourselves that in a previous life, we ourselves actually created the force that led us to this event– in fact, we’ve brought this thing upon ourselves. We can then kindle in ourselves all the feelings that are the results of a thought like this. Of course, for […]
Lastly, now that we have searched out the meaning of the cross as Jesus himself meant the word– seeing that a perpetual divine act of refinement through affliction, as I referred to it, is biblically given as a responsive act. That is, personal acts here on earth, or […]
After sufficient cerebral time was spent on these thoughts, we were able to accept that our search must be expanded, and the question had to be asked, “What is the truth value of a concept like that represented in the word -Stao- throughout the bible? Can the meaning […]
Numbers30:13 “Every vow and every binding oath to afflict her soul, her husband may confirm it, or her husband may make it void. (14) Now if her husband makes no response whatever to her from day to day, then he confirms all her vows or all other agreements […]
Numbers 30:10 “If she vowed in her husband’s house, or bound herself by an agreement with an oath,(11) and her husband heard it, and made no response to her and did not overrule her, then all her vows shall stand, and every agreement by which she bound herself […]
“Then Moses spoke to the heads of the tribes concerning the children of Israel, saying, ‘This is the thing which the Lord has commanded:(2) If a man makes a vow to the Lord, or swears an oath to bind himself by some agreement, he shall not break his […]
Stauros, as well as -stauroo- which becomes ‘crucify,’ is, as we noted, from the base -Stao: to stand/ as in: abide, appoint, bring, continue, covenant, establish, set. Interestingly, a comparable word is -tithemi- or -theo- which means: to place/ as in: advise, appoint, bow, commit, conceive, give, make, […]
In these figures of speech, the so-called self is given as analogous with mind, and more specifically with unacceptable modes of thinking. “The natural man does not receive the things of the Spirit of God… nor can he know them” 1cor2:14 and then v.16, “but we have the […]
And whoever does not bear his cross and come after Me cannot be my disciple.”. Luke 14:27 The gravity of these words seem to pale in comparison to the strong statement that accompanies, verse 26 , that unless one hates his family and his life also, he cannot […]
I haven’t spoken in a while.. I guess I’ve been on this trip.. I accidently disappear. its a mechanism I’m positive.. I’ve been on some other stuff tho. I was turning this over this morning. ..Psalms 68:5-6 “A father to the fatherless, and a judge of the widows, […]
A sentence toward emancipation– Theres hardly a place to start peeling back the layers of skin that cover this fate like a shell. The process begins with a purpose. A Will. And with courage.. No doubt a courageous spirit lined these walls with such dense matter. The process […]
Swollen tight, split in two, self imposed direction led astray, I watched it all take the shape of her descension from the gate.. Sovereign, unable to get in tune, with the angels that drowned In the heart of a fallen light. She didn’t find the word she went […]
————————- My name is Bobby Irelan, I have been around the sun 32 full times, and have been locked away for almost twelve of them.. I’ll probably get out next year sometime but as of now,2020 is my outdate. In these years away a lot of things have […]
————————- Watching him go before me, unable to hear the voice hidden behind closed skies… Residual movements play like shadows in the trees, somber face of the Night holding something back- Only what she thinks I need. Still I see him there before me, setting aside the falling […]
…In these walls, I seen her soul fade, in these walls forgotten, forgotten face. Strangled — Penitent angels sigh, inviolate oppression, cutting thru the layers of emaciate mind.. Shattered– Seated in the depths of fall christened heart of a fiend. strained fate, to deprive … to keep. Over, […]
Self estranged, I draw another connection from the blood of the depraved, in the fading light there walks the last word.. Exigency- evaporate in the remnants with decay. Constellations aflame, Infinity’s jaws Dripping with the night, Inherited- Asphyxia Hallowed resentments drain, Despot Premunition of the self, Stretch the […]
Wavering stars cry with their last breath, Echoes line the boundaries in unmistakable paleness– I grab ahold of the falling sky. Shadows whisper in denial, the regurgitating Wind heaving at the edge of the alter again, Dragging … dragging its tail in waste– I grab ahold of the […]
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