I wanted to let you know I am sorry,I have never apologized to you for being a bad son.I know I disappointed you because I disappointed myself,the things I promised you when I was a kid,I couldn’t give because of my actions.I need you to know that you did a great job,it was me something bad in me something flawed in my thinking that allowed me to do what I did.I love you, your a great woman,if I don’t get out of here I just wanted to let you know these things.I am saying it this way for many reasons the main being I can’t see that look in your eyes,that heartbreaking soul shattering look,so I have to say it this way.I love you mom and I hope to one day make you proud.

CHAZ ISRAEL
DOC #412-512