Today I can say that I had a pretty good day.My situation is a lil complex I guess I can tell you about it now.I am in the situation I am in because I am a very emotional person with my own share of trust issues.It all stems from childhood issues that were never addressed that just lied dormant and would seep out and do its damage and you would never know until it was too late then later on when I thought about it I was like dam that was unnecessary. I always thought that it was just me on some bs but as I got older I came to realize that there isn’t nothing crazy about how I feel it just I react differently in different situations. I am still learning how to deal with my emotions but I am more better equipped to deal with them because I am learning who I am a lil more intimately every day that is something that in a past lifetime I had know awareness that I could do that that’s how blind that I once was but ever since that day in April 2014 I have been turning over all sorts of leafs some happy some sad some enlightening I am just happy to be able to have a all around sense of feelings and emotions that I haven’t had in a very long time. I can say that my day was good because I had the opportunity to speak to someone that I care deeply about and I can say that in situations like this it’s always good to hear a voice that just puts you in your happy place.The crazy thing about it is know matter how much I may love this person vice versa it will only result in a friendship at best.I had a good time speaking with her and she put me in a great place I am thankful to have someone outside of my inner circle of family and friends to speak with.So after my phone call this afternoon I sat back and had some chocolate chip cookies and let my mind just be in its happy place.
Antwan Hood
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