SOCIAL SCIENCE ARTICLE PART 2
A FAILED SOCIAL EXPERIMENT
I just had to go against my own advice and poke my head out of the introvert shell – and get bitch slapped in the face by a healthy dose of reality.It makes me wonder what the point of changing myself for the better is when you realize you can’t change peoples’ perception of you.,no matter what genuine good intention you might have.So instead of having an invigorating intellectual connection and some little brief relief from the mind numbing despair of everyday misery of prison,i,’m stuck with a even more terrible sense of loss and a sick feeling in my stomach.
being an inmate in prison is not just punished by loss of freedom,but by the loss of sense of others trust,and their ability to ever see you as a decent person,being under constant suspicion,
what started out as a simple quest to reach out to someone to merely talk to has spun out of control to now having to avoid eye contact and a sense of sham that I was trying to do something wrong…I guess that will teach me to stick my head out of the window
I might as well go back to my old ways and not feel things deeply.
I was living by the sword when I came in,and then picked up the pen,but now I put it down and say fuck the pen, I want to die by the sword…

TRAVIS M SMITH
DOC #529433