So after ten n a half years, I still seem to be amazed. u know always wondered why people feel the need to lie to those they care about thinking that’s gonna protect them smh. NO !!! don’t lie to me to protect me, tell me what it is so I can face REALITY now. a situation with me n my family finally came to the light recently and it was crazy. was I hurt by this, yes. did I need to know this, yes. I feel like I can do more from a support stand point knowing the truth rather than not knowing….. so I guess my mom was abusing drugs. heroin to be exact. so it hurt my heart hearing that and knowing I couldn’t be there to do anything about it or protect her or anything, yet again REALITY set in. so this whole time I’m thinking that I got a pretty stable family who isn’t dealing with any type of struggle except a financial struggle, but who hasn’t dealt with one of them right? well I was wrong and most of all I felt betrayed by my brothers and step dad for not telling me. now I feel hate towards them for this and I’m not getting over it either. I guess the big question is how is my mom doing now?? to be honest, idk. its sad to say but that’s the truth. I only know what they allow me to know. it just never seems to fail that when u think everything is okay, REALITY sets in and u realize nothing is as good as it seems!!!!!!!
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