NEVER HAVE I BEFORE WHANTED TO BE DEAD MORE THAN I DO NOW. I WANT TO CLOSE MY EYES AND NEVER WAKE UP. I BELONG NOWHERE, NOT EVEN HERE IN PRISON. I JUST WISH I WAS NORMAL OR WHAT PEOPLE CONSIDER NORMAL. AND I JUST WANT TO BE WANTED BY SOMEONE IT SEEMS LIKE IM NOT GOOD ENOUGH FOR ANYONE. THE SOUND OF THESES DOORS SLAMMING SHAKES ME AND THE CLICKING OF THE HAND CUFFS SENDS CHILLS DOWN MY SINE.I HAVE HEARD THEM ALL MY LIFE AND WILL HEAR THEM FOR A LIFE TIME MORE, ITS A NIGHTMARE THAT I CANT WAKE UP FROM. I JUST WISH I HAD SOMEONE TO TALK TO. I FEEL SO LONEY, I FEEL LIKE IM THE ONLY ONE OUT THERE THAT FEELS LIKE I DO. MAYBE ONE DAY ILL MEET SOMEONE THAT FEELS LIKE I FEEL OR USED TO AND CAN RELATE WITH ME.
THANKS FOR LISTENING TO ME RANT LOL.
ADAM HUDSON #737672
PO BOX 120
LEBANON, OH. 45036
I feel the need to write a comment, but I’m not sure what to say… I want you to know that you are not the only one to feel that way. I have felt so low that I contemplated taking my own life. So low that I’d drag a piece of glass across my skin and watch as the wound filled with blood and spilled over. I felt so alone, as if I didn’t fit anywhere. But I did. I want you to know that there is hope. Always.