Ever since I was a kid, I’ve delt with attention duration ploblems. I’m not so bad as to deliberatly lose my train of thought in the middle of conversation, but when an idea strikes, my complusion to speak on it, or bring it into existance is overwhelming. It tends to make my conversation unlinking and sporatic. Now that Iam older, those childish impulse’s have subsided in general, but there at tid-bits of impulsion left.
When I’m writing, I have the same problem. I’ll be smoothly jotting down ideas, or dialogue, or a journal entree, and I’ll get a notion of music, or a ‘what if?’ that is or isn’t related to what I’m writing. It is frustrating and damning at the same time. Especially when I’m on a hot streak and I find my self dumbfounded by what I’m writing. When I was younger and in school, I took Aderal. In my opinion, the drug, when used properly, is an astounding miracle drug that will blot out self-inflicted distractions. My GPA raised through the roof when I seriously took the drug on the daily, but there was a side-effect. I’d get a sever depression by the end of the day. In truth, the drug is made up of an amphetamine and, like meth, it causes you to be high strung and determined in your efforts. For me, it did what it was suppose to; keep me focused. I seriously wish I had it in here. Heck, you all would probably have a book published by me already!
With that being said, I have a confession. My book will NOT be finished come September. There is just too much work to do and I’m trying to force something out of nothing. I need time, and in reality, that is all I have. Time. So, I’m going to give myself some serious rope and say that around this time next year, I’ll ready to publish A Splendid Compromise. But until then, you’ll just have to enjoy these blogs. I hope you all continue to spread the word about a musical/literary artist in the penitentiary that is doing his best to make a change in his life and the world around him.
Go see something live!
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