I feel terrible today for the simple fact that in this environment people give up daily. Today my neighbor tried to take his life and idk how unsuccessful it was but I’m praying for him. This happened in 2015 also when I was in another prison. Unfortunately we all know how dark it has to be for someone to want to do something like that. I’ve battled with these thoughts and actions and its very difficult to deal with alone. I now wish I would have spoken to him more. Maybe I should have sat down and opened the bible with him and maybe that would have given him a glimmer of hope. I really feel upset about this and I can’t talk to anyone about it because majority of the men in here felt like “its not my problem” and “if that’s what he wanted to do then let him do it”. I feel like we all are brothers and sisters and no matter what we have done in the past, what religion we practice, what color our skin is or who we voted for it shouldn’t dehumanize us any further than we already are. This guy was at the other prison I came from 6 months ago and we’ve talked on many occasions. We use to study the bible with another guy from fime to time and I just hate I couldn’t be there for him when he needed someone to be there for him. So if anyone is reading please send your prayers for him, you, me, us, and everyone else in the world who may find themselves in a dark place. We all need help in some way or another. I’m letting go of silly pride and admitting I need help. A lot sits on my mind and this is a way to let the world know how Da’Von Joshua Motley Sr. feel sometimes. I don’t know who’s reading but whoever’s reading, never fold, “keep on pushing” as my grandfather would say. Life isn’t easy and we see that everyday we watch TV or just observe our surroundings. Someone is going through something all the time so don’t hesitate to lend a helping hand because there will be a time when you need a hand also.
Questions/Comments/Concerns
Northeast Ohio Correctional Center
2240 Hubbard Rd.
Youngstown, Ohio 44505
Mr. Da’Von Joshua Motley Sr.
ODRC #707-119
Praying for you Mr. Da’Von. Remember there’s hope as long as you’re alive. Keep keeping on. God’s with you.
Da’von, I’m so sorry. Suicide has touched my family- it is a particular kind of pain to live with. It goes right to the heart of what we believe about ourselves. I believe in God, and therefore that we all all loved and have a purpose, even if we cannot see it at times. Continue to lift others up whenever you can. Don’t despair, you are not called to save anyone, that is God’s job and will. Praying for you.