Well I’m right at 1 year left. 365 days. 52 weeks. 12 months. 4 seasons. One year until my release. When I think of this day I’m filled with a lot of different feelings. Anxiety being the boss. What’s next? I mean what’s my plan? I have a few options and I have great people in my corner but I’m scared I have to start completely over. I’ve done this whole song and dance before, when I was younger bouncing around and crashing wherever. Things are different now. I have to kill it. I have to hit a home run. I can’t just wing it. For me to make this all go away and to forget about it I’ve got to put myself in a position 10 times better than I’ve ever been in. Mentally I’ll be there I know it. I want to be in control of my life again. I want the confidence that I had . Its not going to be easy I know this. I did it before though so there should be no reason I can’t do it again only better. You get what you give. Positive brings positive.
Matthew Shepherd
DOC #1117588
You go! 😊
It will be a big change- plan as best as you can for it, every angle. And make up your mind what you will and will not do. This year will fly past! Hope it’s a good one for you.
What is it exactly that you are afraid of? If you plan on making the right choices, then why be afraid? If you plan on making the same decisions that got you there, then be afraid. When I was there, my plan was to never go back, I haven’t, and to take some responsibility and provide for my son who was 4 yrs old at the time. Yes life can be hard, but that doesn’t mean we start making the wrong decisions. You always have a choice to do good or bad. I hope the best for you, ex inmate to inmate.
This is great news! I guess one recommendation (if I may) would be to not place so much pressure on yourself. This is a big deal. So allowing yourself to become overwhelmed by things beyond your control can actually keep you from being successful in the things that you do have control over.
I came across this statement accidentally today but thought of it after reading your post. “Time is neither for or against, the past is what you make of it. Unlike the past, the future has many unopened doors, doors that could provide for a better past for those living with animosity over the past. Decisions open the right doors.” Blessings to you and your future.
Love you man