I’m very sad right now. I got on a penpal site at
Anyhow, I was trying to find friends from all over the world to write to. I met some good people from this site. Even my best friend Lee met me on that site. But, it just really upsets me that someone would write me wanting to get to know me and they’d just give up on me for no reason. I’d get no explanation. I’d write them asking why I haven’t heard from them and I’d get no answer. Or, if they write me through JPay all of a sudden they’d delete me from their JPay contacts without even saying bye or any freaken explanation. Anyone I write to is important to me. I want to know about different countries and meet people from different countries. I want to make friends far and near, and just because someone might write me it doesn’t mean the next person has to stop. Unless they have other intentions in mind. Because I’d like to make something clear. I am NOT looking for a relationship. I am only looking for friends. (And if I do end up in a relationship with some that’s my personal business). But, friends are important to me. When someone writes me and changes their mind, it hurts. It hurts to be dropped with no explanation. I get my hopes up in thinking I’m going to make a new friendship, and then someone doesn’t have the decency to even say they don’t want to write anymore. Instead I have to wonder what I might have said or done wrong.
Anyhow, this blogging thing is new for me. I don’t get to see the posts or how things look on the blogger site. I don’t have internet access. I’m writing through a closed-circuit inmate messaging site called JPay. So, if someone comments on the blogs, I don’t know what they say. I don’t know if the comments are from someone I know or don’t know. But, just recently someone said they might stop writing because others do. And that breaks my heart. If we have something in common, why would you stop writing? One day, and hopefully soon, I’ll be home. And I intend on keeping in touch with anyone I write. Obviously someone giving up on me isn’t a real friend and shouldn’t be worth my time. Anyone who gives up on me is losing out on a good friend. Because I happen to think I’m a really good friend. I truly care about others. I try to make others smile as much as a friend might try to make me smile. I genuinely care about others.
So, if someone decides to write and they give up on me, just think about what you’re doing to me. I’m in prison. Getting my hopes up and then dashing them is a terrible thing to do someone that is locked up and cut off from society. I made mistakes in the past, but I’m not a bad person. I do know how to learn from my mistakes. Hearing from others is what helps me get through the day. You should feel ashamed for doing that to someone in my situation.
Please write me if you truly want to get to know me. Read my profile completely before writing me. Because if you find out after writing me for several weeks that you don’t want to write someone with a life sentence or that you don’t want to write someone who only wants a friend, then that means you didn’t read my profile completely. Because I’m very open and honest about myself. I have nothing to hide. Be sure that I’m the type of friend you seek before you send me mail. Because abandoning me is a messed up thing to do to me.
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