I just wanted to take a moment to express my relief for an outlet such as this. This is my first ever blog but I feel It will be an on going source of release. I have been living this life for awhile. What I mean is prison has been a possible consequence for my actions since the age of 13. I can’t pretend to have it bad. I have a loving family and people who truly care about me and want me to do well in life. That doesn’t change the fact that I have made dumb choices and known better all the while. I’m 32 years old and have nothing but 2 beautiful sons to show for the time spent on this earth. I’m not a horrible person but have a profound dislike of myself. I have sought help this time around and truly want it. Being a product of DOC doesn’t make change an easy venture. I’m in Coyote Ridge and have to say it has been humbling. I’m an educated man with a lot of drive to be better but it is daunting to envision the possibility of further failure. There are times when I hate myself. I fight the hardest battles with myself while I lie down for sleep. Sleep isn’t always an easy thing for me to accomplish. I have demons and I have to live with the weight on my shoulders. I just want it to be bearable again. I miss my sons. They are still very much apart of my life but It is not the same as truly being there. On that note I will sign off. I don’t know if anyone will read this but I feel better for speaking about these things. Thank you.
Seth K. Teig
DOC #304222
