WASTED TIME

The time I have wasted is my biggest regret,
Spent in these places I will never forget.
Just sitting and thinking about the things I have done,
the crying, the laughing, the hurt and the fun

Now its just me and my hard driven guilt,
behind a wall of emptyness I allowed to be built.
I’m trapped in my body just waiting to run,
back to my youth with all its laughter and fun.

But the chase is over and there is no place to hide,
everything is gone including my pride.
With reality suddenly right in my face,
I’m scared alone and stuck in this place.

Now memories of the past flash through my head,
and the pain is obvious by the tears that I’ve shed.
I’ve asked myself why, and where I went wrong,
I guess I was weak, when I should have been strong.

Living for the drug and the wings I had grown,
my feeling were lost, afraid to be shown.
As I look at my past its so easy to see,
The fear that I had was afraid to be me.

I pretend to be rugged, so fast and so cool,
when actually I’m lost, like a blind old fool.
I’m getting to old for his tiresome game,
of acting so hard with no sense and no shame.

Its time that I chance and get on with my life,
Fulfilling my dreams for a family and wife.
What my future will hold I really don’t know,
but the years that I’ve wasted are starting to show.

I just live for the day I can get a new start,
for the dreams I still hold so deep in my heart.
I hope I can make it, I at least have to try,
because I’m heading toward death and don’t want to die.

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Jesse Bailey
DOC #879476