I woke up this morning , and listened to 50 Cent’s What If . I was looking out of my window at the compound and I started to cry cause I started thinking about some what ifs. The first what if was ” What If Iwould’ve took the plea bargin in the beginning. ” The range was 11 to 15 years , and they would recommend12 years. All I could think was 15 years ! They want me to spend all of my 20’s , and half of my 30’s in prison ! NO WAY ! I’m not pleading guilty to that ! Now , it’s 20 years and some change later. August 21 , 2015 , one day before my birthday , and the one year anniversary of my fathers’ death. What if I would’ve been home 7 to 11 years ago ? I would’ve been there with my Pops , but could I have gotten him to be more mindful of his health ? What If I would’ve got out and ran across ol’ boy that dimed me out ? How much time would I be doing now ? cause I would have had to holla at him. What If I never would’ve got locked up ? A couple of people think I would’ve been dead by now. A few chicks feel that we would’ve had a family , been married & still together ( LMAO ). I know that’s BS because they couldn’t even deal with this situation , so I know they wouldn’t have been able to deal with me for the past 20 years. Well one of them has been riding this out all this time , but I would love to know how me being out during her college years would’ve played out. What If I was born to different parents ? I can’t even begin to imagine how I would be. I would probably be soft mentally , spiritually , and emotionally. I’m glad that I was blessed with the two Beautiful parents I have. Now , with that being said , I’ll leave y’all with this : I was slipping today with the what ifs , cause the what if game is a waste of time. I’m a firm believer that everything happens for a reason , and that reason is because it’s Gods’ will , and who am I to question his will. Song of the day : What If – 50 Cent.
Ramone Echols
DOC #725548
