THE QUESTION IS , AM I TO BE HELD TO THE DECISIONS OF A KID FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE ?
ITS BEEN OVER 26 yrs !
I AM STILL FEELING THE STING OF THOSE ACTIONS, AND PLEASE DONT THINK THAT IM DOWN PLAYING THE SITUATION AT ALL , IM NOT TRYING TO MINIMIZE MY ACTIONS IN ANYWAY .
IT WAS 26 yrs AGO !
IM JUST SAYING THAT ENOUGH IS ENOUGH .
I CANT MOVE ON WITH MY LIFE IF EVERY TIME I TURN AROUND , IM STILL GETTING REMINDED OF MY PAST . I WILL BE THE FIRST TO ADMITT THAT MY PAST IS A TRAGIC ONE , BUT WHEN WILL I BE SEEN FOR THE MAN THAT I AM AND NOT THE BOY THAT MADE A HORRIBLE MISTAKE 26yrs AGO !
IM MAKING A CONSCIOUS DECISION TO NOT GIVE THIS SITUATION ANYMORE POWER IN MY LIFE , I WONT ALLOW ANYMORE PEOPLE TO JUST REHASH MY PAST AND USE IT AS A WEAPON AGAINST ME . THIS WILL BE THE LAST TIME THAT I ADDRESS THIS .
OF COURSE , THERE WILL BE EXEPTIONS FOR THE FAMILY ALWAYS .
IVE MADE DECISIONS THAT I WILL FOREVER REGRET , BUT I HAVE ALSO MADE SOME THAT I AM EXTREMELY PROUD OF , LIKE THE DECISION TO CHANGE MY LIFE !
EVEN IN HERE YOU STILL HAVE A FEW CHOICES AND TO BE BETTER THAN YOUR YESTERDAY IS YOUR CHOICE .
I HAVE MADE A CHOICE TO BE A BETTER MAN ,THAN THE BOY OF MY YESTERYEAR .
I AM A MAN OF GOOD CHARCTER .
I AM A MAN WITH GOOD VALUES .
I HAVE GOALS FOR MY LIFE AND I HAVE STARTED TAKING THE STEPS NECESSARY TO ACHIEVE THOSE GOALS.
I HAVE ATTRACTED GOOD AND POSITIVE PEOPLE TO BE IN MY LIFE AND I HAVE TO PROTECT MY ENVIORMENT AND BY DOING SO , I WILL BE SCRUTINIZING THE PEOPLE THAT I ALLOW INTO MY INNER CIRCLE . WHERE DO YOU FIT IN AT ?
IF I WANT GOOD AND POSITIVE THINGS TO HAPPEN TO ME , THEN I HAVE TO GAURD AGAINST ALL OF THE HATE , AND I WANT TO PUT MYSELF IN POSITION TO RECIEVE ALL OF THE BLESSINGS THAT THE LORD HAS FOR ME…..
WHAT I HAD BEEN DOING WAS BLOCKING MY BLESSINGS BY GIVING POWER TO THE PAST RATHER THEN OPENNING MYSELF UP TO THE BLESSINGS OF MY HERE & NOW AND MY TOMORROWS .
WHEN YOU STOP GIVING POWER TO THE PAST , YOU ARE SAYING THAT YOU ARE BREAKING THE CHAINS OF THE PAST AND MOVING FORWARD INTO THE FUTURE WITH A DESIRE TO ENJOY THE POSSIBILITYS .
IN THE END , ITS YOUR DECISION TO MOVE BEYOND YOUR PAST OR YOU CAN CONTINUE TO STAY IN YOUR YESTERDAYS .
MAKE A CHOICE .
I HOPE THAT SOMEONE UNDERSTANDS WHAT I HAVE SAID IN THIS LITTLE MESSAGE AND CAN PERHAPS GET SOMETHING FROM THESE WORDS THAT WILL BE BENEFICIAL TO YOUR OWN GROWTH.
AS ALWAYS , STAY SAFE OUT THERE. UNTIL THE NEXT TIME.
JAI’MAR SCOTT
DOC #970703
if my opinion matters, i do not believe anyone who comitted a crime young in life should be incarcerated for an extreme amount of time. Looking back at my life- every decade has brought drastic changes..some good, others not so good. I couldn’t imagine not being forgiven and released of my sins committed so long ago.