SOMEONE ASKED ME TO STATE MY CASE . WOW !
THANK YOU .
I COULD JUST IGNORE THIS REQUEST BUT THAT IS NOT WHO I AM AND THAT GOES AGAINST WHAT I SAID THAT I WILL DO WHEN I FIRST STARTED BLOGGING . I AM A MAN OF MY WORD AND I WILL TRY TO ANSWER ALL QUESTIONS SENT TO ME , NO MATTER HOW DIFFICULT.
THIS QUESTION WAS ASKED OF ME…
WHAT HAVE I DONE TO DESERVE FORGIVENESS ?
THAT IS A QUESTION THAT I HAVE ASKED MYSELF A THOUSAND TIMES AND I STILL COME BACK WITH THE SAME ANSWER…
NOT ENOUGH !
WHO CAN DETERMINE WHAT IS SUFFICENT TO RECIEVE FORGIVENESS?
I BELIEVE THAT NO ORDINARY MAN CAN COME TO THAT CONCLUSION.
I MAY WANT THE FORGIVENESS OF MY VICTIMS FAMILY AND MY VERY OWN COMMUNITY BUT ULTIMATELY MY FORGIVENESS COMES FROM MY LORD AND SAVIOR JESUS CHRIST .
WAS I EXPECTING FOR IT TO GET THIS REAL SO SOON ? NO , I WASNT BUT IM WILLING TO ACCEPT FULL RESPONSIBILITY FOR MY ACTIONS AND PART OF THAT IS BEING TRANSPARENT .
MY CRIME WAS A HEINOUS ONE. ONE THAT I AM NOT PROUD OF . I TOOK THE LIFE OF A INNOCENT HUMAN BEING . I CANT REPLACE WHAT I TOOK , I CANT FIX WHAT I BROKE .
WHEN I THINK BACK TO THAT DAY , I GET SO DISGUSTED WITH MYSELF. THE MAN THAT I AM TODAY WOULD NOT HAVE BEEN INVOLVED IN ANYTHING LIKE THIS .
MY BELIEF AND MORAL SYSTEM WOULD NOT ALLOW FOR SUCH ACTIONS . NO ONE DESERVES TO HAVE THEIR LIFE TAKEN FROM THEM AND I WILL FOREVER FEEL GUILT , REGRET AND SORROW .
I HAVE REACHED OUT TO THE COMMUNITY BY SPEAKING TO AT RISK YOUTH THAT COME TO WORKSHOPS , I DO DRAMATIC INTERPRETATION OF SPEECHS THAT ARE DESIGNED TO REACH THE MINDS OF YOUNG MEN WHO ARE FLOODING THE CORRECTION SYSTEM.
I ALSO SPEAK ON THE RESPONSIBILITY THAT THESE YOUNG MEN STILL HAVE TO THE KIDS THAT THEY LEFT OUT THERE IN THE FREE WORLD IN THE CARE OF A WOMAN WHO HAS TO SHOULDER ALL THE WEIGHT THAT TAKING CARE OF A CHILD ON YOUR OWN BRINGS !
I FORCE THE MEN IN HERE TO LOOK AT WHAT THEIR ACTIONS HAS DONE , NOT ONLY THE LOST OF THER FREEDOM BUT ALSO THE LOST OF THE BLESSING THAT IS CALLED BEING A PARENT !
I CHALLENGE THEM TO DO ALL THAT THEY CAN TO BE INVOLVED IN THEIR CHILDS LIFE , EVEN IF THEY ARENT IN THE MOTHERS LIFE . THEY HAVE TO PUT THEIR FEELINGS UP AND PUT THE WELFARE OF THE CHILD FIRST.
WHAT HAVE I DONE , THAT IS THE QUESTION , IM NOT GOING TO MAKE ANY EXCUSES AND NONE OF THIS IS MEANT AS ONE BUT WHAT ELSE CAN I DO WITHOUT VIOLATING THE NO CONTACT STIPULATIONS IN MY JUDGEMENT AND SENTENCE ?
I WOULD LOVE TO TALK WITH THE FAMILY BUT I WANT TO GET OUT OF PRISON ! NOT STAY IN FOR VIOLATING THE LAW.
I CANT CHANGE MY PAST BUT MY PAST IS JUST THAT …… MY PAST .
WHAT I HAVE TO FOCUS ON , IS MY PRESENT AND MY FUTURE . I HONESTLY HOPE THAT ALL OF YOU UNDERSTAND BUT IF YOU DONT THATS JUST TOO BAD.IM NOT GOING TO LET THIS HAUNT ME.
I WAS CHALLENGED TO STEP UP TO THE PLATE AND TAKE CARE OF BUSINESS AND I ASSUME THAT I HAVE DONE JUST THAT . I HAVE TAKEN FULL RESPONSIBILITY FOR MY ACTIONS AND I ACKNOWLEDGE ALL OF THE PEOPLE THAT I HAVE HURT .
I SINCERELY WANT THEIR FORGIVENESS BUT MY WELL BEING DOES NOT DEPEND ON NOR REVOLVE AROUND THAT FORGIVENESS .
AS ALWAYS , IF YOU STILL WANT TO DISCUSS THIS MORE , YOU KNOW HOW YOU CAN GET AT ME PERSONALLY.
BE SAFE OUT THERE. UNTIL THE NEXT TIME .
JAI’MAR SCOTT
DOC #970703
Well said. At the end of the day you have the power to make positive decisions moving forward and to live the rest of your life in a positive way. It is a powerful thing to have recognised what you have done and to have taken responsibility for that. There is nothing more humbling than to face yourself and see where you went wrong. Keep up the good work of growing and developing into a humble, gentle new you.
Yes. The past is the past! We can only do something about our lives going forward!!!
To the human eye, we can never really do enough for total forgiveness. Thankfully, Christ died on the cross for our sins. As long as we are humble and ask for forgiveness, He will forgive us. The hardest part is forgiving ourselves. Asking God to transform us so that we are able to forgive ourselves and learn from our mistakes. Then we can grow and help others through our trials and God will shine through us.
I look forward to hearing what happens on your trial date. You will be held in my heart, that things will work according to God’s plan.
Blessings,
Devin