THE REASON FOR THE CRIME THAT I COMMITTED CAN NOT BE EXPLAINED AT THIS POINT IN MY LIFE BUT I CAN TELL YOU THAT I WILL FOREVER FEEL REMORSE AND GUILT FOR THIS CRIME, AS WELL AS THE CRIMES AGAINST MY VERY OWN COMMUNITY.
I WANT THE WORLD TO KNOW THAT I AM FOREVER THINKING ABOUT THIS CRIME AND IT’S AFFECT’S ON THOSE THAT I HAVE AFFECTED BY MY ACTIONS.
HOW CAN YOU REALLY EXPRESS REMORSE? AND WHO DO YOU EXPRESS IT TO? IF REMORSE IS A FEELING, IS THERE ENOUGH WORD’S TO DESCRIBE THAT FEELING OTHER THAN AN INTENSE “IM SORRY”?
REMORSE IS DEFINED AS “THE KEEN OR HOPELESS ANGUISH CASUSED BY A SENSE OF GUILT”.
NOW WHO’S TO JUDGE MY REMORSE? HOW CAN ANYONE JUDGE WHAT I AM FEELING IN MY HEART?
I HONESTLY BELIEVE THAT ONLY GOD CAN DO THAT. HOWEVER, IF A MAN COULD DO THAT, WHAT WOULD BE THE CRITERIA? WOULD IT BE MY TEAR’S? OR WOULD IT BE ELOQUENT WORD’S? OR WOULD IT BE A COMBINATION OF BOTH? WHAT DOES IT LOOK LIKE?
TRUE REMORSE COME’S FROM WITHIN AND IT HAS TO BE SINCERE. JUST BECAUSE I DON’T CRY OR SHOW MY EMOTION’S, IT DOES NOT MEAN THAT IM NOT REMORSEFUL, THAT IM NOT SORRY!
SOMETIME’S SORRY REALLY MEAN’S SORRY!
SOMETIME’S YOU CAN’T FIND THE EXACT WORD’S TO DESCRIBE YOUR FEELING’S AND JUST BECAUSE YOU CAN’T, IT DOESNT MEAN THAT YOU ARE NOT EXPERIENCING REMORSE.
IN MY SITUATION, PEOPLE EXPECT TO SEE REMORSE FROM ME BUT SOME PEOPLE FEEL THAT IM NOT REMORSEFUL BECAUSE I DONT WEAR MY EMOTIONS ON MY SLEEVE .WEARING MY EMOTIONS ON MY SLEEVE IS JUST NOT WHO I AM.
IM NOT SAYING THAT IM EMOTIONLESS BECAUSE I DO FEEL THINGS. HOWEVER BEING IN THE ENVIORMENT THAT I AM IN, WEARING YOUR EMOTIONS ON YOU SLEEVE OR EVEN DISPLAYING THEM CAN BE VERY DANGEROUS.
ONCE AGAIN, IM NOT BLAMING ANYONE BUT MYSELF FOR THE POSITION THAT I FIND MYSELF IN BECAUSE THIS IS OF MY OWN DOING.
HOWEVER, SHOWN EMOTIONS IN CERTAIN CASES IS NOT ACCEPTABLE.I SINCERLY HOPE THAT I HAVE EXPRESSED MY POINT CLEARLY AND THAT SOMEONE REALLY DOES UNDERSTAND. IF YOU DISAGREE, THAT’S YOUR PROROGATIVE, BUT IF YOU UNDERSTAND, PLEASE REACH BACK OUT TO ME AND LET ME KNOW.
UNTIL THE NEXT TIME.
JAI’MAR SCOTT
DOC #970703
Let it out to just one person and you will feel free. You write and express yourself beautifully. You are a perfect creature of God. Holding onto this is hurting you. If God can forgive you, then what others think does not matter. Peace to you, brother.
Very nice article. Your article inspired me to write this one: http://positivemagnetenergy.wordpress.com/2014/11/26/personal-view-no-absolute-truth/
An interesting discussion is worth comment. I do think that you ought
to publish more on this subject matter, it may
not be a taboo matter but typically folks don’t discuss these topics.
To the next! Cheers!!